Eclipse

We used to talk everynight.
Trying to recall every phone calls, video calls and texts,
Only a few managed to stick inside my head,
Pieces of memories that made me fell in love,
Looping in every minutes in my mind,
Those smiles, those pout faces, those laughs,
I miss them all.



I cant find a way to forgive myself. Should have love you better. Should be more patient in loving you. I should, try harder. Should have realized that you are worth more than any sacrifices.

Fuck. I wish I can turn back the time.

Somehow, you found someone better.

Im not included in any of your plans.

While my dreams have your name all over it. It's you and me on top of the world.

Now, it's just me. alone. Here. Not moving.

But you're living your dream with someone else. Not me.





I showed you the best part of the world, proved you the world is not hallow and dark.

Sadly, you're living in the beautiful world exploring all of it, somewhere else.

While I'm the one living in the hallow, dark and cruel world that you believed.

blurry lines

Im sorry. I really wish you're here, pulling me out from this mess.
No one understand. No one feels the same way I do.

but to tell you the truth, it's better that im the one who feel and carry all these shit and scars, so you can have the time of your life, enjoying every second with him.




I wonder, have i ever even cross your mind, just even a second.

Rock-bottom

You dont have plans to go forward with me

I am and never will be good enough for you

It will never be easy

I'll prove you are wrong. Soon

Save me

I've made so many mistakes.
I've broken so many promises.
I've searched inside, and I'm empty,
Will you save me?

- Killswitch Engage

Cursed

7 years since my last writing. How fast time flies. Countless of sleepless nights. Wishing everything is the other way around. No matter how fast I run, the past seems easy to catch me up.

Recreating all of my future plans. Keeping my circle small. But still you're always on my mind. How can I imagine a new future when you were my future. A delusion that I keep telling myself when you're not even mine. I accepted it. I moved on. Now you're the only rage I have to live better. To be better. To prove you wrong.

I swear I will prove you wrong.

I have nothing left to say . . . . . .

I cant even write this time. So a link will describe the best about myself right now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HCoaSxqb13Q

A cold night

AT LAST , MY DAD BOUGHT ME A NEW FAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha.. But the the new fan is in their room. I only got to take the old fan. Which is still okay. (Y)

So i started to contact with her again. I hope this is okay. Well im just going with the flow. Knowing we wont rush things and it's good to know each other back from the start. We're moving on and creating our own new book. Which i think is good right? And suddenly I found an old song from Weezer. So i posted it on my fb, and she likes it. And currently we both kinda addicted to that song. It's a sweet song featuring Sara B. I guaranteed it will carve a smile on your face. A smile just like this > :)

click this link if you want to check the song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dqNvkNhyY0E

Im being evil again. I know , it will hit me back soon. I've tried to stop. But i cant. If i know what to do with this situation. I've never told anyone what is wrong with me. If i told someone, probably, they will underestimate me. Especially GIRLS. For guys , i think they wont care or they'll say awesome. fuck. I want to stop this. By my own. I know 'ego' right? haha.

UPU's result will be on may. Hopefully. I cant wait to continue my studies. And Im afraid as well. UITM just please pick me up ok? Idc which part in malaysia you're gonna put me. As long im in UITM to continue my studies in bank management. This is the only chance for me to change my life or probably will help me end the situation that im in.