Eclipse

We used to talk everynight.
Trying to recall every phone calls, video calls and texts,
Only a few managed to stick inside my head,
Pieces of memories that made me fell in love,
Looping in every minutes in my mind,
Those smiles, those pout faces, those laughs,
I miss them all.



I cant find a way to forgive myself. Should have love you better. Should be more patient in loving you. I should, try harder. Should have realized that you are worth more than any sacrifices.

Fuck. I wish I can turn back the time.

Somehow, you found someone better.

Im not included in any of your plans.

While my dreams have your name all over it. It's you and me on top of the world.

Now, it's just me. alone. Here. Not moving.

But you're living your dream with someone else. Not me.





I showed you the best part of the world, proved you the world is not hallow and dark.

Sadly, you're living in the beautiful world exploring all of it, somewhere else.

While I'm the one living in the hallow, dark and cruel world that you believed.

blurry lines

Im sorry. I really wish you're here, pulling me out from this mess.
No one understand. No one feels the same way I do.

but to tell you the truth, it's better that im the one who feel and carry all these shit and scars, so you can have the time of your life, enjoying every second with him.




I wonder, have i ever even cross your mind, just even a second.

Rock-bottom

You dont have plans to go forward with me

I am and never will be good enough for you

It will never be easy

I'll prove you are wrong. Soon

Save me

I've made so many mistakes.
I've broken so many promises.
I've searched inside, and I'm empty,
Will you save me?

- Killswitch Engage

Cursed

7 years since my last writing. How fast time flies. Countless of sleepless nights. Wishing everything is the other way around. No matter how fast I run, the past seems easy to catch me up.

Recreating all of my future plans. Keeping my circle small. But still you're always on my mind. How can I imagine a new future when you were my future. A delusion that I keep telling myself when you're not even mine. I accepted it. I moved on. Now you're the only rage I have to live better. To be better. To prove you wrong.

I swear I will prove you wrong.